Monday, December 31, 2012

Year in Review: 2012

Timeline 2012

January: brother is committed to a mental health facility for almost a week

February: start watching Attack of the Show

March: get into rear end car accident on way home during rain; pass CSET General Science I & II subtests; get into The Hunger Games series

April: see The Hunger Games movie with Grandmom (2x) and Uncle Rob

May: take and pass CSET Science subtest Biology/Life Science; see Wyatt at work on Memorial Day

June: turn 26; Mom wins tickets to Sea World from KOLA; celebrate Uncle Rob graduating Cal Poly Pomona; brother wrecks car in accident not his fault; Grandmom buys me new tires and gets free tickets to stuff

July: lay offs finish at work; Summer Olympics begin; start rewriting A Hero's Sojourn

August: my brother and I install our pool; The Hunger Games on DVD; fight with Eric

September: start applying to graduate school; attend Military Appreciation Picnic 2012 with fellow store employees; eight year Albertsons anniversary; make up with Eric

October: mad scientist for Halloween complete with eye patch; work at closing store

November: Thanksgiving with Mom, Andrew, and Uncle Rob; finish Statement of Purpose, only to realize I wrote it wrong because I didn't read; movie with Uncle Rob (Silver Linings Playbook); get new store director at work; receive my Certificate of Clearance from the CTC

December: decorate for Christmas for the first time in four years; lots of rain; Mom dogsits Summer at Grandmom's house; start reworking my SOP and Personal History; finish SOP; have New Year's Eve off

Year in Review: Entertainment

Entertainment that made an impression on my year...

TV
Revolution
Once Upon a Time
Adventure Time with Finn and Jake
Regular Show
The New Normal
Go On
Jessie
A.N.T. Farm
Austin and Ally
Dark Matters: Twisted But True
Summer Olympics
Merlin
Lost Girl

Movies
The Hunger Games
Silver Linings Playbook
The God Who Wasn't There
Winter's Bone
Poker House
The Burning Plain
Episode of Bardock
(I didn't see many new movies this year...or ones that didn't somehow star Jennifer Lawrence)

Books
The Hunger Games
Catching Fire
Mockingjay
Anthropology of an American Girl
God Is Not Great

Music
Still Alive” and “Want You Gone” from Portal
Call Me Maybe” - Carly Rae Jepsen
The Hunger Games soundtrack
The Fighter” - Gym Class Heroes
Underneath the Sycamore” - Death Cab for Cutie
Easy” - Barenaked Ladies
Rifle's Spiral” - The Shins
Shoelaces (Morgan Page Remix)” - The Submarines
Sophisticated” - Sarina Paris
Good Time” and “Alligator Sky” - Owl City ft. Carly Rae Jepsen and Owl City


Thursday, December 20, 2012

Every Last Bit

School was a mixed bag
I excelled academically (usually)
I floundered socially (mostly)
And yet I am fortunate to say and feel
That I never hated any of it

Lucky, I guess, that I was naturally curious
Seeking, wanting, needing, asking
Fed information by teachers, which never satiated my mind
Close to others who were like me
(Some just lazier, I guess)

School was awesome
Even into higher ed, Chaffey, and UCR
Though homework and exams made me feel otherwise
Made me stress, study, proofread a million times
But still were satisfying with a passing mark (or top billing)

So to give such a feeling (hope, inspiration, pride)
To someone else
That makes it all worthwhile, every last bit
Start to end, beginning to my present
Their beginning to their future

How I was inspired, how I will inspire
It doesn't end with school
We never stop learning
Hopefully they take away at least that
And my job will be worth it

Every last bit

CGS

date unrecorded.

Lonely Ambitions

The idle hum of the refrigerator
The tick-tocking of the clock
The faint beep of a faraway scanner
These are the sounds of loneliness
Faint voices, laughing, talking
The sunshine they soon will see
The breeze, the fresh air after the rain
While the rest of us work idly away
A job pays the bills, and these people are like family
But sometimes I think about when I will join the other side
And not be chained to baskets or a checkstand
My ambitions go further
So why don't I chase them away from here?

CGS

15 July 2012.
on lunch break between 3 and 4 pm.
breakroom.

Monday, December 10, 2012

Worst Things I Ever Ate (Or Drank)

vomit flavored Bertie Bott's jellybean
-while hanging out with friends at the park, 10th grade, after first semester finals

mycoprotein (fungus protein) nuggets
-unsure; enough said

red and white wine mixed with cheap vodka
-with Jon, which ended up with me being super sick for three days with every symptom on the Pepto Bismol bottle. Also, Sprite does not equal 7 Up.

soda with a dead fly
-While watching Teen Titans 2003 in the summer after eleventh grade

gum and Pringles
-summer after fifth grade, after swimming and while playing Goldeneye with my brother in our garage

Sunday, November 25, 2012

Statement of Purpose


I am pursuing a Masters in Education and a single subject teaching credential, which will allow me to teach in the public school system. Specifically I want to obtain an M. Ed. with a general education teaching emphasis and become authorized to teach general science courses as well as my specialty of biology. As a move towards this goal, I have taken and passed both CSET general science subtests and the biology/life science subtest. I have also earned an Associate of Arts in University Studies with an emphasis in math and science and a Bachelor of Science in Anthropology. Both sets of coursework have prepared me in different ways to become an effective teacher.

My time spent studying biology as well as other physical sciences gave me a strong foundation for understanding and appreciating the natural world. Aside from that, the lab work and more specifically the fieldwork and field trips I participated in brought out my curiosity. My professor, Doctor Robin Ikeda, inspired me to look at the world, ask questions, find my own answers, and test them out. Concretely, she allowed me and a partner to carry out a fungi survey in the canyon Chaffey College students had been studying for over twenty years, something that was very different than most other projects but just as enlightening. The area had been destroyed by fire five years prior, and this survey allowed us to not just catalogue species but to inquire as to why these particular types were thriving above others and to try and understand the recovery of the environment. I have taken this skillset with me since, and it will be helpful as I not only teach scientific concepts but also how I approach teaching itself. Teachers who show their own passion for the subject and who demonstrate that they still look for answers in the world are much more likely to get the students interested as well. I experienced this first hand in junior high and high school with two different but equally inspiring teachers.

As for my anthropology coursework, I have garnered an invaluable way of approaching others in our very diverse society. Specifically, because of my study of culture, I feel I am prepared to deal effectively with the very diverse student body I will face. One thing that was emphasized in my courses was taking a bottom-up approach to studying situations, which means to look at them from the perspective of the individual rather than the group. This gives better insight into what situations people are really dealing with, and this allows me to tailor my approach in the most effective and meaningful way. A second, equally valuable lesson I learned was that you cannot approach a situation from your point-of-view alone because, chances are, the students you are trying to educate and help will come from a different one.

My time spent at UCR, one of the most diverse learning environments in the country, has also prepared me for this, and I want to return to earn my M. Ed. and credential so I can share my love of learning. Aside from this reason, my experience taking two education classes in the graduate school allowed me to see what kind of experience I could have within the program. The GSOE has also shown its commitment to attracting and preparing math and science teachers with the Copernicus Project, something I as a community college student was fortunate to participate in. All of these are strong reasons why I want to pursue my Masters and credential at UCR and to further my own learning.

I have always enjoyed learning, which is what compelled me to take so many classes and why it took so long to earn my Bachelor Degree. My broad education in liberal arts and sciences also garnered me the greatest recognition an undergraduate can receive from an honor society- an induction into Phi Beta Kappa. This passion for learning I have wanted to turn into a passion for teaching for as long as I can remember. It started out as a simple reading of my favorite book to my first grade class and was further nurtured by the multiple times I led study groups and privately tutored friends and fellow classmates.

My closest taste of being an actual teacher then came when I spent thirty-five hours in a ninth grade science class with my mentor teacher Ms. Erikca Brown. Most of what I did at first was simple observation as I tied it to concepts I was learning in my education course. Slowly I came out of my shell and was more comfortable taking an active role in the student's learning. This culminated in me preparing my own lecture, approved by my mentor and presenting it to the two classes. The entire experience was fulfilling as I got to use the knowledge I had acquired in my own study of biology and present it with a game I myself had played as a college freshman and as a Copernicus Project intern. Receiving compliments and seeing them have fun while learning was so rewarding.

I also understand that teaching will have its fair share of challenges that will vary in degree. An effective teacher must be able to recognize such challenges and work with students, parents, and colleagues to find solutions. As such, I feel my personal qualities of patience and understanding coupled with the broad worldview I acquired as an anthropology student will allow me to do this. A good teacher must also be able to communicate well, a skill I have been able to grow and refine in my eight years of customer service and my experiences in study groups and tutoring.

To me, teaching is not just telling someone information. It is inspiring others not just to learn but to want to learn. I was fortunate to have two great science teachers, one in middle school and one in high school and even more lucky to study under professors who know their subject and conveyed it with such passion that it inspired me to think and explore on my own. Our students need, especially in math and my subject of science, teachers who will do this for them. My passion for learning and teaching, my love for science, my drive to encourage and help others, and my abilities to listen, understand, and communicate with others I know will allow me to be that kind of teacher. No matter where I end up teaching, I look forward to sharing not just my knowledge but my passion and being not just an effective and fun teacher but a voice and an ear for my students.

Friday, October 19, 2012

Darkness

If you look in your heart for darkness
Darkness is what you will find
You can let it outshine your light
Use it to justify the pain you inflict on others
Or you can recognize that it does not define you
For human nature is a duality, torn this way and that
To be one, to be the other, to be both
Being is nothing at all
Because we can all be something
It is our actions that define who we are
Just make sure you can live with those actions
And make damn sure you can live with or without those who are affected by them
They may mean more to you than you ever could have realized

4/28/2012
CGS

“Darkness”

Change

“A childish mind will turn to noble ambition”
Or so I was taught by a video game long rooted in my childhood
And yet I cannot place the day when such delusions of grandeur
Were replaced by that vision of what was to come
My fantastical notions of saving a world became grounded
I was never cut out to save the world
But shaping it for the better was well within my reach
It was about time I settled in to chasing that credential
And chase it I did
Even if it took four more years

4/26/2012
CGS

“Change”

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Skydiving from the edge of space


In 2008, I was made aware of Captain Joe Kittinger who jumped from 102,000 or so feet and set the record for longest free fall and highest jump among other things (thanks to my physics professor in her attempt to teach us about free fall). Then, this past Sunday October 14, 2012 I had the fortune to watch Felix Baumgartner jump from about 127,000 feet. And man, was it ever epic. Both men were amazingly brave and patient to go through with their projects. I cannot imagine hurtling towards the earth from so high up yet I imagine neither of them will ever forget it. Go science!

And yet still, I see them both differently. Kittinger did it in 1960, when technology was nowhere near where it is now. He easily could have died. In fact, his right glove malfunctioned on the way up and caused his hand to swell twice its size, but he kept going. For the experiment. Not to take away from Felix because I could never do what he did, but the tech was so much better this time 52 years later. It was still f---ing amazing but somehow just not as impressive.

Personal opinion. Both guys rock and have collected so much valuable data that it doesn't really matter. Just thought I would put that put there.

Friday, September 21, 2012

Hunger Games and Poetry

"Hope
is a butterfly
landing on your arm,
gracing you with its presence
for no more than mere seconds,
then flying up into the sky
before you can grasp it
in your hand,
once again out of reach."

--excerpt from my poem "Ode to Hope", October 2003

I have seen a butterfly in various movies and often think of my own line in this poem. However, as I watched The Hunger Games this last March, April, August, and September (yes, I have seen it four times), I pictured in my head each time the same stanza. In the movie, Katniss has just run off into the woods after escaping the bloodbath at the Cornucopia, and she sits down on this dead log. A butterfly, a brilliant blue in color, has landed nearby, and she reaches out and lets it walk on her hand. Then it flies away.

Whenever I see that, I think about my own vision of hope and how it flies away. The whole scene is good (thanks in most part to Jennifer Lawrence), but when I see it, I think of my poem and imagine if Katniss feels like she, even for a moment, has a feeling of hope,then the rest of us have one, too.

Memories and Pokemon

I have quite a few of these that are tied together, but the first that occurs to me is simple.

My mom and dad owned a condo in my hometown where they lived before they decided to have me. They moved to a house about seven months before I was born and rented out the condo. I remember one time my brother and me going with them to clean up the place after some particularly messy tenants (read: they were white trash pigs) left. We found cock roaches everywhere, and thus was born a stereotype about such arthropods that would last for years.

Then, when I was thirteen I guess my dad was helping my mom with some other tenants after he got off work and while she was still busy with hers (they were divorced by then, too). All I remember is playing in the grass with my other toys and thinking about the AWESOME toys he bought for me. An early victim of Pokemon and the obsession with Japan, I had found these human Pokemon figure sets straight from Japan.

Ash and Misty
Jessie and James
Brock and Nurse Joy

All were $25 a pop...and he got me all three just because I asked him to. Because he was trying to be the best dad ever. And you know what? Now that I think about it, he was pretty good. He got me a Furby (that I didn't even want...), Pokemon toys from Burger King along with Toy Story ones years before, bought me most of my Blue Gender DVD collection.

He did a lot besides buy me stuff, but this is where my mind goes when I think about him sometimes. Often he wasn't there for me emotionally, but he tried on many other levels that I often overlook.

He took me to the orthodontist often. He took  me and my best bud to see the first Pokemon flick. He stood inline for toys he thought would mean so much to me. He helped me ditch school sometimes.

So I guess I mean this partly as a tribute to my dad and what I think about when I remember my early obsession with Pocket Monsters.

So, I love you, Dad.

And I'll keep trying to catch them all.

(Pokemon! Oh, you're my best friend in a world I must defend.)

Thursday, September 20, 2012

Resume Update

So! Yesterday, I called my grandma and found out there is an employment resource center in her town (my old hometown). My one uncle and his wife went and got help with their resumes. She suggested me and my other uncle, a recent college grad in accounting, could go with her and get the same help. Sounds cool, huh? (And this is free, provided for the public and paid for by tax dollars, yet another example of what our tax money goes for.)

However, I really didn't feel like going to day when I got up. Feeling guilty and like today was going to be another waste, I decided to search once more for some help online. And what do ya know, I found some really helpful, more specific information. In just over an hour, I had put together my first ever resume. I know I still have to work on it and will probably need to make different versions for the positions I am seeking, but now I have something written...er, typed down. Yay me.

I also found out some helpful information for my uncle based on what he majored in and the kind of position he wants to have. My grandma was happy on both notes, and for once I haven't been a lazy bum.

That is all.

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Why is it so hard??

Writing a resume, I mean. Inspired by a fellow co-worker, also a college graduate like me, getting a job that will be in her interest field and pay the wage she deserves thus allowing her to put in a week's notice, I have started the process of doing the same. At least, I've tried. I made a list of all of the things (or most) that I would like to include on it, but I've never actually written one before. So naturally I go to Google for a little point in the right direction and find...even more confusion.

So many types, fonts, ways to organize, goals to accomplish with different kinds... It seemed daunting before, but now it more so. Even still, I will do it when I can focus better. I was hoping today would be that day, but alas, I messed around on YouTube for too long, browsed Facebook, and have been paying a lot of attention to Mittens' latest mess up, the leaked tape that can he found in the post just before this one.

(Whole other rant right there but I will save that for later. Maybe. All I know is that I resent being basically called a lazy leech who thinks the world or my government owes me a living because I'm voting for President Obama again. Yeah, 'cause that's why I have a job but am looking for another one that will allow to not need as much or any help to get by and that I am actually qualified and prepared for thanks to my wonderful public school education and the grants that allowed me to get two degrees with no student loan debt along with the roads that I took to get there paid for not in my federal or state income taxes because I've always made crap wages working where I do as is the nature of the biz but in the other taxes I do pay like vehicle license fee, sales tax, etc. just like my mom, my dad, my grandparents before they all retired, my uncle, who finally found another job, my cousins who are also getting an education... Okay, that was a long run-on that I made on purpose. Moving on.)

So today is not that day. Sigh. Maybe I'll venture a play through Slender later and feel like I've faux accomplished something I've been meaning to do.

Creepy and scary as hell

Good day, all. For now.

Comment Win IX

Exactly!

From this article.

Saturday, September 15, 2012

BAMF Girl's Club



BAMF Girl's Club

A YouTube series by Comediva about Hermione (Harry Potter), Katniss (Hunger Games), Buffy (Buffy the Vampire Slayer), Michonne (The Walking Dead), Lisbeth (Girl With the Dragon Tattoo), and Bella (Twilight) becoming roommates. It's awesome and hilarious while it pokes fun at each character. Enjoy.

Starters

Pokemon starters by generation:

Gen 1: Charmander (Red); Bulbasaur (Blue); Pikachu (Yellow)
Gen 2: Totodile (Silver)
Gen 3: Charmander (FireRed); none for R/S/E
Gen 4:  Chimchar (Platinum); Cyndaquil (SoulSilver)
Gen 5: Oshawott (Black); Tepig (White)

Friday, September 14, 2012

The Boy

Twelve was not a good year
I had no friends
My grandmother died
My mom's dad was hurt by his own dog
The idea of seventh grade is just a painful thing in my heart
But I did connect with a boy
I was the go-to Zelda girl in homeroom
I discovered my love for science
As thirteen grew closer, my life brightened
I can blame it on my new gang (courtesy of that boy)
Maybe it was beating Zelda finally
But probably it was him
I guess twelve wasn't so bad after all

4/27/2012
CGS

“The Boy”

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

I'll Say...


Just having some fun with a conveniently placed caption and the man I currently loathe the most.

Much like this one from the former Bush era...

Friday, September 7, 2012

Steps

The first step is always hard
I don't remember my first baby steps
Though I had a penchant for rolling everywhere
And escaping my crib during nap time
I don't remember my first adult steps
Was it graduating high school, learning to drive, getting a job?
Or was it finally deciding to aim for university for real?
I do remember the first step towards myself
It was on a playground with a boy
Who convinced me to trust him, to trust me
Right foot first, then left following closely behind
I didn't just take a step, I took a leap of faith I could, I would end up on my own two feet
His small smile was proof that I was right

4/27/2012
CGS

“Steps”